uhhh so...sorry?

so super mega apologies again for being MIA for awhile...AGAIN
ever since july things have sort of flip-flopped for me--my overall life situation has improved tremendously, but lately I've been struggling a bit artistically.
& as much as I wanted to be around dA anyways, it was getting a bit depressing for me, art-wise...

I took a few days off from drawing here and there when we were still trying to figure out how things would work in this new apartment & also just so the bf and I could just enjoy each other's company after not living together like this for most of the duration of our relationship...which basically meant that my anxiety about drawing sort of bubbled over and made me feel like I didn't have the skill to create anything. I truly wanted to draw, but every time it came time to pick up a pen, I just sorta panicked and collapsed in on myself.

like
I def don't consider myself to be much more than a mediocre artist, but for awhile it felt like whatever ability I did have had just kinda died off and wasn't coming back.

I think I might have it settled again for now? now that I've broken the barrier & actually have drawn something.  I guess I can't really say for sure, but as long as I keep the momentum up I should be ok for awhile, I think.

Anyway, sorry to friends for any messages, artworks, & other important things I may have missed--& feel free to catch me up on anything that's going on w/ you.  I really do care, I just needed some time, I think--and more than I initially thought I needed.
& if there's anyone out there I haven't really gotten acquainted yet with, please feel free to say hi and strike up a conversation.  I love making new friends even if I'm occasionally shit at maintaining things with them